I Suck

Yeah, the detox lasted a whole day, ate a sandwich at midnight. I felt so sick, like I was going to puke the whole time, so not fun. It actually did help me appreciate food more, and it did shrink my stomach. For that whole day all I wanted was some soup and maybe a banana, which are healthy cravings. I will definately be eating healthier, but it is not a good week or two for me. I am also looking for another job and hopefully find one.

Cinch Diet - 5 Day Detox

I have been very miserable and feeling unhappy about my body for the past month or so. I have decided to try a 5 day detox and decided on the Cinch Diet Detox. I have read great reviews of this detox and it looks like one that I could complete for 5 days. I also ehard that after the 5 days you have a new appreciation for real food, which would be great. On top of this detox I am also trying a "get happy this week detox". I have been donig new stuff and making sure to spend every minute either happy or asleep. Life is too short to be angry and I am making an effort to not be so angry.

So later today I am going to clean my room, that always makes me feel like a new person. I am also going to take my dog on a walk since he is the most precious thing in the world and I don't know what I would do without him. Last night I awoke and he was beside me and I thought he was dead. He wasn't moving, even when I shook him .. eventually he opened his eyes but I was so scared! Oh and I will be posting much more since I stopped for like a week and my life has actually goen downhill.

So the Cinch Diet seems really easy and natural, which I like. It involved 6 ingredients and 4 meals. I have not bought the book yet but I have done my research online, and it was on Rachel Ray. The diet involved spinach, raspberries, eggs, yogurt, almonds and almond butter. So it involved 4 meals (breakfast, lunch, dinner than a snack) and each must be within 3 to 5 hours of each other.

So today I woke up at 10:30 am (kinda late) and I made breakfast at 11 am. I did not have spinach so I could not make the orignial breakfast I wanted, so Instead I ate the recommended lunch for breakfast. (I'm sure that's okay right?, better than pushing it for another day tho). So for breakfast I had a yogurt parfait and coffee. I'm not sure if coffee is allowed but I need it, and I had it with only a little skim milk so it shouldn't be that bad.

So berakfast was 3/4 cup yogurt, 1 cup raspberries (I used some other frozen berries since I ran out of fresh raspberries) and 1/4 cup almonds. This diet does not involve oil or sugar or salt, so I sweetened my parfait with cinnamon and nutmeg. Cinnamon is great for the body, and I'll post an article about it later.

The breakfast was huge, I actually had to make 2 parfaits since I didn't have a bowl big enough. It was kinda sour since the yogurt was plain greek yogurt and the raspberries were unsweetened but It was definately filling and worth it if I lose pounds. I heard people my size losing about 8 pounds in 5 days. I am more using it just to jump start my diet since I don't think losing that amount of weight so soon can be healthy.

So I did my math for the yogurt parfait:
3/4 cup yogurt = 120 cal, 6 gram protein
1 cup raspberries = 64 calories, 8 gram fiber
1/4 cup almonds = 170 calories, 15 gram fat, 6 gram protein

It tasted pretty good too, and I will definately continue eating this. After the detox I will probably add a little sugar or honey to make the yogurt sweeter.

About to go to the gym soon and I'm feeling great ! Expect a post later tonight about the rest of my meals.

Discouraged

I am so deeply discouraged with my life right now, I honestly just want to runaway or die. Nothing is go right and I am so frustrated to the core. I went away with my family but that turned out AWFUL. My mom continued to call me fat and called me a whore and said how we always ruined her life and we ruined her getaway. I basically ran away and had my boyfriend pick me up, fuck staying there with her. I can't stand her and I have nowhere to go. Also, I don't know about paying my tuition for next year, I don't even want to be alive in September so why pay for schooling.

My boyfriend, hate him. He is always telling me how to excercise and how to eat. If ever I'm hungry and he's not then we won't eat. I will go to his hosue and he'll be like you sure your going to eat that? It makes me sick, and I resent him so much. At the gym today he's like your much smaller than you were, you used to be husky. I remember you had a huge back and your legs were much bigger. Like really, thanks, that is what you remember from when we first started dating. I am sick of it.

Tomorrow is Canada day so I have to celebrate by getting drunk. But after, I am on a 5 day detox plan. I am so so so upset. Oh and i have to work in an hour, .. sucks. I work in a Winners and am basically going to pick up clothes for 5 hours, lots of time to think and be depressed.

Taco Bell

Today has been a kinda bad food day allready ! I haven't been to the gym yet, I will try and force myself to go later .. I feel myself backing out of this workout though, ughh. I'm driving my sister to the mall (for her to work) so I'll probably end up staying there. I'll try and not eat, or if I do it will definately be healthy.

So far I have had a sandwich (little mayo + mustard + cheese ( 1 1/2 slices, ahh i love it) + tomato & bell pepper) and a coffee , just milk though , not sure what percentage .. it was at my boyfriends


Oh and my sister wanted Taco Bell and I caved. It is my favourite, ahh. I did just have one bean burrito which is good. I didn't even want to order my normal side of nachos & cheese so I'm getting better. The bean burrito has 290 calories, which is not too bad but I didn't NEED it, but whatever. Not too bad, and the point is I can eat out without over-doing it.

Today was awful

Such a bad day, I am so depressed with my family situation and I spent the night there as well I have to tonight too. It is awful and I am not so sure what to do, I only have a year left of college but I am beyond frustrated. I am so annoyed im considering dropping out of school and getting a full time job and moving out. Oh, and I really am a level headed person, it just is that bad.

I went to the gym today and burned 300 calories, which is good. It took me longer and I feel exhausted but at least I did it. I ate really well today though !


Breakfast- cheese string & coffee
Lunch- pancakes (homemade with whole wheat flour)
Dinner- pea&carrots&lima beans, and 2 tablespoons of peanut butter & 4 crackers
As well, I had maybe 2 glasses of juice today.
I always do things so drastically so I know I should eat more but I'm really liking how I'm looking. Plus, I'll probably eat tonight .. nights are mostly where I get my calories from .. I need to stop that haha

What are you eating?

What is in your food? I used to be so unaware of what was in my food because if it tastes good then who cares. I started researching all the ingredients and realized how gross and unnecessary some ingredients are. That is why I am starting to cook more at home.

I am vegetarian but have been so unaware of all the gross meat additives that are added to our food. After this list you will defiantly be checking your grocery items! This is gross and so appalling that these ingredients can be added to our food without warning.

Always remember to read the ingredients in your food, if you can’t pronounce more than 3 of the words then don’t eat it. You wouldn’t take a pill that you don’t understand so why eat ingredients you don’t understand. The best food is food that does not have a label (fruits & veggies).

Beaver Anal Glands

The anal glands of a beaver, called castoreum, are in perfumes and colognes but are also sometimes used to enhance the flavour of raspberry candies. GROSS

Beef fat and Gelatin in Twinkies

Does a dessert really need beef fat to make it taste good? Really, that is gross.

Crushed Bugs for red food dye

I would prefer my food to be white or grey than used crushed up bugs as food dye.

Carmine also called Crimson Lake, Cochineal, Natural Red #4^,  C.I. 75470, or E120, is placed in yogurt or juices or candy to make the food red. Dried insects are boiled to produce a liquid solution that is then used as a dye. Sometimes companies hide stuff like this by calling it “natural colour” since bugs are natural.

  

Beetle Juice        

Yes it is really beetle juice.This substance is known as shellac, and is a glaze that comes from the secretions of the female lac beetle. It is the shiny part on candies like skittles or sprinkles. 

Sand in Wendy’s Chilli

This is supposedly used an anti-caking agent, however I’ve never had to put sand in my chilli before. Oh and it’s not referred to as sand, because that would just sound gross. So it is disguised as silicon dioxide .. still sounds gross though.

Calf Stomach in many Cheeses

Yes, even cheese sometimes is not vegetarian. Some cheeses use a substance called rennet, which is a young cow’s fourth stomach.

Peta has a huge list of items that are not vegetarian/vegan, I only researched a couple of the grossest ones I could find. Here is the link for the full list:

http://www.peta2.com/STUFF/s-wte-animalingredients.asp 

Vegetarian

I am a vegetarian and have been since I was 12. I think it has to do with my love for animals, I ADORE animals ... especially my little dog. I can't seem to like the taste of meat, the thought of eating it makes me sick. My family would moo at the table until I cried. Once my mother and sister took me to a meat & cheese shop and pointed out all the dead animals that were hung from the ceiling. I was about 10 and cried my eyes out, while EVERYONE there laughed. I occasionaly try meat but I have no desire to eat it and I despise the taste of it. Some people find it so hard to understand that I don't eat meat. I hate going out to dinner with strangers because they always say OH YOU GOING TO ORDER LETTUCE? WHAT DO YOU EAT IF YOU DONT EAT MEAT? I once had an ex boyfriend say to me YEA..THE REASON WE HAVEN'T INVITED YOU FOR DINNER IS BECAUSE WE DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SERVE YOU. It drives me insane, I will eat anything but meat. I will eat pasta, or even just the sides of veggies and potatoes. I have never asked for a special meal or expected anyone to go out of there way just because I don't eat meat. I am sick of the prejudice of being a vegetarian and I'm sick of all the websites about hating vegetarians.

These celebrities are all also vegetarian :) I'll be posting some recipes too hopefully, one of which is vegan cupcakes that taste DELICIOUS. (i promise)

-Pamela Anderson
-Alicia Silverstone (vegan)
-Shania Twain
-Carrie Underwood
& many more celebrities